The two key ideas in Step Two are Faith and Sanity. Faith includes belief and trust. Both of which you need in this journey of recovery. While I was in addiction I believed in the Lord, but I did not always TRUST HIM. I figured I could do this journey alone and of course I failed miserably. I definitely did not feel sane in addiction. I often tell people that I felt like the hamster stuck on the wheel going around in circles.
Our higher power can be whatever we believe in. Mine is Jesus. I now in sobriety trust that God is with me no matter what. I believe He looks after me and that he’s got this all under control. I believe God brings HOPE, PEACE, and ENCOURAGEMENT. I also believe that no matter what I do in this life God loves me. The important thing is we need to trust and believe in recovery and that Help is available. WE cannot do this on our own.
I have lots of help in my recovery. I have a Woman’s Addiction Life Group where we zoom once a week. This is where I’m doing my 12 steps. I have an awesome counselor who also holds me accountable. Every week she gets my reports for my online accountability. I have internet accountability on both my laptop and my phone. This gives me the freedom to go where I want but choosing healthy sites to go to. I sometimes go to Celebrate Recovery which I really love. THey are Christian and I really liked them. They are good support and each week you can do dinner and meet awesome people. I also have good friends that have stood by me in this journey.
One of the questions in my book on 12 steps says ” What do you currently believe about a Power greater than yourself? ” I believe God is my father and that I’m HIs beloved daughter. I believe that Christ did on the cross to save all our sins. I also believe that God is the same yesterday, today and always and I believe God’s word and rely on His words for encouragement.
I love that we now have been restored to sanity. I often felt like a crazy woman in addiction. In addiction I did things that I would never dream of doing sober. My crazy cycle. Now I’m out of that I’ve written down words that express the sanity I’m heading towards. This was a fun activity to come up with words. What words describe your sanity in addiction?
Here are mine: Encourgement, Hope, Blogs, Journal writings, FREEDOM, FORGIVENESS, Friends, Accountability, Praise Music, Worship, TRUTH, Humor, Prayer, BEAUTY FROM ASHES, Counseloring, LOVE.
The biggest thing for me that I have gained from step two is that I realized I was not crazy and that all the people in recovery we all have a story to share and that we understand each other no matter what. We can do this recovery process together. Lets ban together and believe and have trust.