After having a crazy childhood, I never knew if I wanted children of my own. If I did, I would definitely change how they grew up. I would tell them how proud of them I was, how much I loved them, listen to them, hug them lots and so many more positive things. What builds up a child?
I met a man I married and he had three children who I met many times and instantly loved them. They lived with their mom so I only saw them occasionally. Then they moved away and I got to see the girls as adults. God gave me the biggest heart for each of them. To this day I still reach out to reach out them. I remember their birthdays and celebrate with them in their milestones. Their lives have not been easy but I’ve always been here for them if they need me.
I never had children of my own and I wrestled with that for years. Then one day I felt peace about that. I think of all the children I’ve cared for in so many situations that I could be an example for. I wanted children to know what it is like to laugh and have fun. God’s blessed me with an amazing sense of humor and our children today are quite serious. I love to make them laugh. Humor is a good distraction as well especially if one is anxious in any way.
I have the biggest heart for children especially those who have endured trauma in their lives. I understand them so much. I can pick them out on the playground. Unfortunately they stand out. They often are the ones that get bullied in the playground. They often are by themselves. A lot of them like me get into trouble often and are so misunderstood. We are just trying to fit into a world that is often hard.
For almost my entire life I’ve worked with children and their families. I love it and at times it’s been hard. I’ve been blessed to know many children and I love that I can make a difference in their lives. We all need someone whom we can trust. Someone who understands us, who stands by us no matter what. Know that we are loved. I love that those hard students that you never know if they will ever let you in, come running over to you and hug you. I love that they check in so matter how hard it is. That speaks a thousand words. Love is powerful very powerful. Love changes everything. It’s what changed the outcome of my life.
In September we will have more new students and every year God places that one child in my class. Sometimes it’s like looking in the mirror, but I understand. We will go back to building up that trust. I love that I can make a difference. So not having children of my own is ok because I’ve had that privilege to get to know some amazing children and their families. ❤️
Beauty from Ashes. 