Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, or keeps no records of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects always tusts always hopes. 1 Corinthians 13:4-6
I always thought I was a patient person in all aspects in my life. I am at work with the children I work with. Recently I hurt myself at work and it’s been a slow recovery. It’s been hard to go from being able to do everything to being able to hardly do anything. The pain has been great and its painful to move. The worst for weeks was getting out of bed. It’s hard waiting for recovery. I’m inpatient and blamed myself for what had happened. I have a good friend who reminds me that this was an accident and it was not my fault. She’s right. I’ve been hard on myself what if I had done this or that…… It’s not my fault.
I’m inpatient waiting for that perfect job the one I keep applying for and the one I get turned down from because I have no senority. I went from being able to get any job I wanted to now having so wait patiently to gain seniority.
40 I waited patiently for the Lord; and he inclined unto me, and heard my cry.
2 He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings.
3 And he hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in the Lord.
This has been a good time for me to see that God wants me to rest my body and heal and not worry about jobs, what I can and can’t do. He’s showed me that my body is tired. It’s tired from life and dealing with grief was so hard to work when my heart was broken. This injury has given me much needed time I needed to spend with the Lord. He’s taking care of all my needs and for now I’m resting my body and soul in the Lord. I realized today that I could never afford to go to physio if workers compensation were not paying for me to go and my loss of wages. Getting stronger and better is my goal right now and I need to embrace this. It’s nice to feel peace in the midst of my impatience. I would not trade this time for anything. God has a plan and all this under His control.
I’ve been off work now for a week. It seems like longer. I hurt my back and hip at work. I realized when your in pain the whole world continues on but it feels like life is passing you by. It’s made me stop and think about those who are in pain everyday. I couldn’t imagine how that feels. I do know when your in piles of pain it stops you doing all your normal activities. Pain can be so isolating. Everyone you know is at work so it can be lonely and when basic tasks are painful.
I reached out to my friends for help. Help with groceries and my neighbour bless his heart is an amazing man he’s helped me so much. I told my physio yesterday it feels like when your immune system is down and you get sick. That’s what it feels like in my body I’ve gone through so much in the last few months that my body is down and then I’m not vulnerable to getting hurt. She said that’s very interesting that I would think that. She talked about invisible things in our bodies nobody sees. In grief we suffer my body is suffering also.
Many of us suffer inside our bodies with depression, suffering, our mental health. Please don’t suffer alone there are places to turn to and people to talk to. Just because we look fine on the outside we could be suffering inside. I hate being off work and in pain but I do know this to shall pass. For some this is their daily life.
While I sat in the clinic the other day I saw a man whose bottom half of his leg was amputated and how he now had to face his life without his limbs. Another man sat beside me just out of rehab trying to find his way in this world sober. Overwhelmed and unsure where this would lead him. I realized that no matter what I have in life I’m grateful for what I have. There is someone out there who is worse off that you. Even in pain I am grateful for my life.
This has been the hot topic since the SuperBowl last weekend. I did not watch the game or half time but heard how demoralizing the show was to woman. What I don’t understand is SuperBowl weekend is one of the largest Sex trafficking weekends. Last year over 1.5 million people in the US are victims of trafficking for sexual exploration. About 750 people were arrested in nationwide Sex trafficking sting operations before SuperBowl last year.
This year millions of children were watching the SuperBowl and this showed young girls that sexual exploitation of woman is ok. We already lived in a very Sexualized world. As I’ve written before pornography is huge in both men and woman in our world. The numbers are staggering every year. Some are calling this like watching soft porn. I bet there were a lot of conversations with children after watching this. This saddens me so much. What are we teaching our children? Since my recovery in sexual addiction I realized watching sexual videos, there are real people on screen. Porn is fantasy but these peoples lives are real and they are being forced into this industry and so many are dying inside. These women have to be high to perform and it’s destroying so many people’s lives.
There is good news Jesus can heal you, transform the way you see. He can set you free from this addiction. Layer by layer He can heal your brokenness and restore you to the person He created you to be. Thank you Lord for being my healer, deliever , restorer and redeemer. We must take every thought captive. We are in a battle of our minds. We must put off our old selves and be renewed in the Spirit of our minds. By running from these lies and running to God the power of sin can be broken.
We also need to protect our children and educate them about what they are seeing and how they perceive this world. Unfortunately these two woman from half time have a lot of young people who look up to them. Why not be a role model for something not Sexualized and still have young people look up to you.
One reason we are so harried and hurried is that we make yesterday and tomorrow our business, when all that legitimately concerns us is today. If we really have too much to do, there are some items on the agenda which God did not put there. Let us submit the list to Him and ask Him to indicate which items we must delete. There is always time to do the will of God . If we are too busy to do that, we are too busy — Elisabeth Elliot
I have found that hurriedness and busyness are the enemy’s best kept distraction from God. And when I feast my eyes on a busy schedule (my to-do list), I find that I lose HIM in the motions of everyday, and pursuing the Lord gets lost in the robotic rhythm of monotony of the whichevers and whatevers. It’s when I cannot take…
I feel I’m being challenged to death right now. I wish my life would slow down. It’s been a tough three months and does not seem to be slowing down. My husband leaving has been the hardest thing for me. So many unknowns but one thing I do know more than anything else is that I fully trust the Lord with all my heart and soul. It’s not always easy. Even though I’m going through this I see God in so much of what I do. He’s brought awesome people into my life. One of those woman is my friend and I have grown to love. She’s always there for me and these past months I’m not sure I could do my life as well as I have. She understands so much about grief and loss and has stood by me in more ways than I could imagine. I love how we both can laugh and cry together. This past week I hurt my back at work and today she came over and helped me organize things in my home that just leave me some what overwhelmed.
God has given me another opportunity to go back to the school I love so much. I find it really hard hurting myself and not being able to work in the position I applied for. I know this is a temporary setback but I find myself second guessing myself. I realized when I needed money God gave me money where I least expected it. Trusting God is all I have in this period of grief and adjustment.
One of the positive things that has come out of this is I’m finding each day more and more peace and that I’m starting to find out who Sarah is and I’m loving that about myself. God has given me so many people and friends and an awesome family. He gives me just what I need to go on. God uses people in my life to give me hope and encouragement like Kim’s book encountering our wild God.
So each day I must continue to Trust you that this temporary and it soon will be a blur in my life once forgotten and on to something else. It doesn’t matter what your going through in your life. Life can be really hard and difficult. Be kind and loving to yourself and for me I must not be so hard on myself. God is looking after me always. Thank you Lord for that. Thanks to all who have prayed for me lately for my back, my job God has heard our prayers and He’s got an awesome plan for me. I just need to be patient. As the saying goes patience is a virtue.
I recently reread this book. I read it when it first came out and I thought it was a really good book. Then I picked it up and wow I loved how much I could relate or just needed that encouragement from the information in the book. Kim Meeder and her husband Troy are good friends of mine. Some of my friends know that they own a ranch in Central Oregon called Crystal Peaks Youth Ranch. They rescue horses and team them up with children. I fell in love with this ranch when I visited it in 2009. Since then I have gone many times and I love this place so much. It’s become my home away from home. The ranch is a peaceful, restful healing place for me and I have volunteered there a lot.
Kim is an amazing writer I feel like I’m there when she writes. She is an amazing woman of God and her life now reflects what God has done and is doing in her life. The ranch is a refuge for those who want to know Him more. Kim follows what God instructs her to do Pray Listen and Do. Her stories in this book are simple acts of obedience. The stories offer Hope and encouragement. Kim says ” That’s the wild simplicity of our God.”
This book is about stories of people Kim and Troy have met and how just being there for them has helped others in so many ways. God has lead a lot of different people into their lives but because Kim is willing to do whatever God asks of her people’s lives have been changed. She spreads the gospel who this wild God is to her. She trusts Him with her whole entire life.
Her testimony of her life and meeting the Lord at 9 years old through a horse. This book is very inspiring. She offers practical everyday ways to persue and trust Him no matter what we go through in our lives. I was going to share some stories but I can’t write and capture it the way Kim can. This book I would highly recommend everyone to read.
We all have different journeys in our lives. I’m learning how to Listen, pray and Do. It’s not always easy but it’s a really rewarding place to be. What path has God led you to be on? Where is He leading you in your life? Are you able to allow down and really listen to what the Lord is telling you. I have learned a lot from this and I see God using me every day to make a difference in the lives of others, especially those precious children. God also uses me in prayer. I’m a big prayer Warrior and have seen also things through prayer. My heart and soul is for people.
Follow your passions and Christ will meet you where you are in life.