I am a women who loves to write and I write because for so long I lived in darkness and never spoke about my life and now I want to share my life and my story with others to help and encourage them on this road we call life.
My good friend and I spent part of the day on this incredible beach yesterday. We had such a lovely time and brought our lunch and just hung. It was an incredible day. We decided to explore around our area and see what we could find. In our way home we were driving and I was behind a tractor trailer rig but no trailer and they were a student driver so we driving behind them and there car behind us. We were in no hurry. All of a sudden my friend gasped and I’m not sure why because we were just driving. All of a sudden to my left I notice a vehicle coming straight for us. My instincts kicked in and I swerved to the shoulder on the right. I honked my horn hard and stepped on the gas and the guy just missed us. Not sure where he was going but there also was a car behind me. He apparently came out from a side street. Our hearts about exploded in our chests. I pulled over and we just sat there in shock.
We got back on the road still in awe about what just happened. I thanked God for saving us from getting in an accident. My friend agreed that yes indeed we had been saved. We get home and we’ve been home for a few hours and I’m changing things around in my home and after we moved a table into my studio I smell burning. My friend said it’s from moving the wires. I’m not convinced that’s it. I continue to smell a burning smell.
As I start making dinner my friend is outside and tells me to come outside she wanted to show me something. I walked outside and notice smoke coming out of my herb garden. We realize this sphere is in the garden and obviously the sun hit it a certain way and it was smoking from a fire. We pulled it off the rail of the deck brought it downstairs and my friend lifted it out with oven mitts and drenched it with water. The whole soil was burnt so it was like a bog fire in my planter.
So many things running through my head with this. Glad we were home and it could have burned through the rail and so many could haves. The other weird thing was that sphere had been in that same garden for about 8 years and yesterday it decided to burn. The bottom of that was really burnt. Again I’m praising God that we caught it before it caught my home on fire. After that we removed all glass from my balcony.
God was looking out for both of us yesterday. I’m so eternally grateful Lord. Thank you. I believe angels were watching out over us both yesterday.
My heart feels like this orchid. I got this orchid and about a week after I got it, it had a tragic accident a fluke one. I was so upset all the flowers fell off except one. My big blinds in my living room fell off and crushed it. I decided I wanted another one and brought myself one on Mother’s day. I put it in one of my windows and just watered it and gave it some orchid fertilizer. Soon I noticed it was growing shoots and then buds appeared. It has regrown almost double the buds it originally had. Last night I realized it’s got three sets of flowers on it wow.
Why I’m saying I’m like this orchid is because for about 6 months or more my heart was so sad from grief and one day I decided to change myself actually about two days before my birthday. I decided to better myself and now I feel this huge joy in my heart each day. I have blossomed just like my orchid. My heart is full of joy. I’m not sure I’ve felt like this ever. Not only physically I feel good I’ve lost 15lbs and yes I feel lighter. My Confidence has soared and my relationship with the Lord has been the best it’s ever been. I’ve also had the toughest year.
During this tough season I relied solely on the Lord. I love spending time with him. He’s my best part of my life. God is using me to help others who have lost hope or feel like maybe there is nothing changing in their lives. My home finally is the way I want it to be. I love all the people God has put into my life and I’m so thankful for each of you.
I’m sorry if your hurting in your lives right now. There is hope and He is there waiting for you. Reach out to Him today. If you let me know in the comments below I can pray for you. 🙏❤️
Who is God to you when you think about him? For me God is my Eternal Father. He’s been with me throughout my whole life. He has been a huge father figure to me. He’s protected me when my own father failed me. He’s brought me Eternal peace when the world around me failed me. He’s been my provider, my comforter and Prince of Peace. I would not be here today if it was not for the Lord.
I love what God represents to me in my life he’s my best friend and Lately I see Him in so many things. I’m so blessed to live in an amazing part of the world. I’ve been spending a lot of time down on the beaches. There are rocks every shape and size and logs and the sound of the waves. I find the beauty of the islands around take my breathe away. God is in everything that surrounds us. I see God in different people and in their passions.
Who is God to you? What do you think about or see when you think of God. I would love to hear your thoughts on this. No matter who God is to each of you. Know one thing for sure He loves you very much. ❤️
Lately in my prayer time I feel God leading me to share my testimony with others. I’ve been writing it out to share with a gal I’ve recently become friends with in Oregon. We have similar backgrounds and think similar things. God drew us together for many reasons. She is a huge prayer warrior and like me she loves Crystal Peaks Youth Ranch. Even though my testimony is hard to write it shows me that no matter what I’ve been through God was always there for me. When I couldn’t walk he carried me. He gave me strength where I should have died. He helped me in my darkest times. No matter what I went through as a child, a teenager or an adult He stood by me through out it all.
My life has been hard in so many ways but also so rewarding at the same time. I realized recently that my story was not finished yet. I had one last thing I needed to do. Forgiveness has been huge in my life and again I see my story cannot be completed until I forgave the person in my life I loved. It seems like love for me is such a painful thing but forgiveness is what I needed to do. One morning I got down on my knees and cried out to God that again to gain freedom I needed to forgive someone who had hurt me. It was so hard to look at that and put that into forgiveness I saw love again out of that.
I’m thankful to be able to share my testimony with others because I’m sure something in it can help someone else. God allows pain so we can grow and move forward in our lives. For me I believe it helps me feel that compassion for others who go through hard things because in some way you can relate. I also believe it strengthens our faith. A lot of people have come through really hard times but how we handle it helps. I used addiction to numb my pain but think of how many others are addicted to something.
I’m lucky I have many wonderful people in my life who love and support me in all that I do. If your having a tough time I’m here for you. I will pray for you and I can share my story with you. We need to share our stories with others. What has God done in your life, what is He doing now?
Seems like we will be stuck in this pendemic forever. Our curve had been flattened here on Vancouver Island but now we are starting to see a rise of more people getting the virus again. Again today two more cases. The first wave was tough isolating at home. I think it’s probably harder doing this journey on your own. Maybe the married people would think oh man I’m not sure I can get through another wave with this person. I have to say being on my own was not as bad as I thought it would be. I’m a social person but also love my alone time.
I hope we don’t have to go back to months at home. I love and enjoy my home but it’s hard not being able to see your friends or be able to go out when you want. It’s funny I was dying to get out once out I was dying to get back home. I think I chose the wrong career not sure if school will be back in Sept maybe only back to essential workers. I’m grateful for government assistance but I’ve never been on it ever. I love my job so we will see what happens this summer. If numbers keep rising then we may have to go back to being in our homes again.
This pendemic has been hard on so many people. I watch my mom struggle with my dad who has dementia and the stresses that come with that. My best friend started her chemo today that will be a really hard journey for her. I watch others struggle with losses and not being able to have funerals for their loved ones. I watch the care homes be shut down and nobody being able to visit their loved ones. My grandpa is 104 and a half and my parents can only visit with him outside the care home. It’s so confusing for them.
Businesses are struggling to stay afloat many just shut their doors. Domestic violence has risen and abuse of children. What do these families do when their resources are cut off. Isolation is not the answer but being able to connect is key. Video calls, social distancing, making your bubble smaller again. I’m not sure we will ever go back to church. I’m so grateful for the zoom times we have. I pray that we don’t rise up so much we are forced back into our homes again. Reach out to others who you know are Alone. Drop off some flowers, send a card or just say hi to your neighbours. We will get through this pendemic together. 🙂
” The Lord is my Shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lay down in green pastures, He leads me by quiet waters, He refreshes my soul, He guides me along the right path for his name sake. Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil because you are with me, your rod and your staff they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of thy enemies. You anoint my head with oil, my cup overflows. Surely to goodness your love will follow me, all the days of my life. And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.”
At church yesterday we talked about the Psalms which ones had meaning to us. I love the psalms a lot. I find it relaxing and a great comfort. Psalm 23 is a psalm I’ve used a lot when I was discouraged or depressed or just having a hard time. When life really kicks you down it’s a great comfort to know that I’m led to quiet waters and He refreshes my soul. My soul often needs to be refreshed to help me continue on the journey the Lord has provided. My body gets tired. He guides me on the right path that’s great. For a long time I traveled the hard road not always the right one. I made bad choices and decisions, but no matter what I chose God always brought me back to His path.
God has given me so much in my life. I would not be here today if it was not for Him. Even as a child when I cried out to Him, He was always there. He protected me from death many times. God’s faithfulness leads us through the dark valleys while He watches over us. His love is abounding for us and I know the Lord is always there no matter what. When I feel alone I cry out to the Lord and He sets me back on my path. He loves us all so much ❤️no matter where we have come from, no matter what we have done. Reach out to Him today, He is waiting for you to tell Him your needs and wants.
My heart is really heavy lately. Heavy from people I know who right now that are battling cancer. We all have seen cancer for a long time is taken many people I knew and loved. I’ve also seen a lot of amazing things with people in remission. It seems like lately that people are diagnosed with aggressive cancer. Cancer comes in all shapes and forms but no matter what form it comes in it is hard.
Recently one of my core friends got diagnosed with breast cancer and it rocked us. We are four friends who hang out together lots we go on road trips and before covid we celebrated everyone’s birthdays with parties. What is tough is one day you’re well and the next you find out you have cancer.
She’s an amazing woman who is wanting others to know what her journey is like. She found one Christian person online who went through this so she’s wanting other Christians to know what this experience will be like. Praise God she’s had lots of tests to see if the cancer is anywhere else and it’s just in the one area.
As her friends we will stand by her for whatever she needs to get through this journey. On Wednesday she starts her chemo once a week for 4 months. As you read this please can you pray for her she will need all the prayers. Thanks.
As this changes her life for now we pray the chemo shrinks the lump and that with the surgery the cancer will be gone. As her friends I pray we can be an awesome encouragement for her. Besides our friends I heard this week a mom of some other good friends her cancer is back and this time it’s untreatable. Lord please be with Patti at this time and her family. Be with them as they have just learned this news about their mom. Also Lord pray for Trisha as she also is going through breast cancer at this time. Lord be there for her and her family.
Life is so precious don’t ever take it for granted. For me I do the best I can with what God has given me. I’m a big prayer warrior and I Believe that God can heal. So I’m praying for healing for each of these woman. When I think I may want to complain about an ache I stop and don’t because life is way to short for that.
Addiction has been part of my life on and off. I struggled with alcohol until God freed me of that. Then God gave me freedom in sexual addiction. I’m coming up to 3 years with that. When I went through my season of grief I found I used comfort often through food. I was aware of it and then I hurt myself my SI joint and then covid came so in six months I gained an extra 10lbs. During that time I also broke my finger. Two days before my birthday I decided that something needed to change in my life. I could keep going the way I was going and continually hurt myself from being so overweight or I could put in the hard work and do something different.
I joined a kickboxing place that was doing a 6 week challenge. It focused on nutrition, exercise and accountability. The exercises are high impact and then the kickboxing. It’s a tough workout but on one of my days I told my coach to remind me how I got into this mess of overeating and lack of exercise. It took me a long time to advise my body so it will take a while to get it into shape. I love kickboxing for me it gave me self confidence that I don’t think I’ve ever had. It’s very Empowering to do this sport. I’ve lost 12lbs already and I finally feel really happy in my life. This has been a long time coming.
I love my new eating habits and no longer use food for comfort. I use God, prayers and connect with friends. My blood sugars are amazing and don’t have those crashes. I feel so good and actually feel lighter. I walked up a whole ton of steps last weekend without being winded. I’m getting there. I’m wanting to lose 30 more pounds. I can do this and I will.
My word for the beginning of the year was preservance and that I have needed this whole year. Without it I would not be as far along as I am. ❤️
I’m sitting here this morning thinking about my weekend and have much tears. I spent the weekend with my dad. He was dementia. My mom needed a rest this weekend. I went from not seeing much of what goes on to really seeing what my mom goes through everyday. I see the grief my mom feels and sees but I also saw the joy. Dementia is hard on everybody especially the person going through it. My dad shared with me his frustrations of how he’s done things especially driving for 60 years so why can’t he drive now. He’s lost that freedom and it’s hard. He was the most independent person the brains of our family.
It’s hard to watch him struggle but he’s still got his sense of humor and the memories of his life growing up is amazing. I shared some incredible moments with him. Yesterday morning after breakfast he put on really beautiful music. He told me he his mom and dad used to listen to music every Sunday morning. I posted the video above my mom and dad both are in this choir and how much it’s helped both of them. My dad whistles and hums and when he’s anxious or unsure he goes to the music. He never was a singer but I see how much confidence music has given him. For my mom she loves singing but also she gets support from others whose spouses have dementia.
On Saturday I sat in on a zoom interview with Erica and Rick about how she got into directing this Choir and how much she’s loving this project.
I posted photos of the beach because this is my dad’s favorite walk. He knows every square inch of this beach and it’s so familiar to him. He told me it’s peaceful out there and I experienced this as well. He collects rocks that stand to him and I have a bunch of them at my house. I’m so glad I got to spend this special time with him this weekend. Time is so precious and I’m going to make the most of what I have. I feel so blessed today to have had this opportunity. ❤️
But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:31
This is one of my favorite scriptures. God has given me eagles as a witness sign for Him. I only see them occasionally when I’m looking for confirmation He’s there. The other day I was totally memorized it was Monday morning and I was heading to the gym. I turned into the busy street I have to drive on to get there and I see this large bird. What caught my attention was it’s very large legs. It was chasing something. The bird it was chasing dipped onto the street right in front of me. The eagle almost landed on the street as well and the smaller bird took off and up soared the eagle after it into the bushes on the side of the street. Holy cow I was stunned because every bald eagle I’ve seen usually is soaring up in the sky. It took my breath away.
It’s been a hard couple of weeks for my friend she’s wrestling with health issues. It’s been hard on her core friends as well but praying lots for her. I’ve been dealing with some deep personal issues that sometimes leave me breathless. To me this is a sign from the Lord that there is strength and freedom. It also means change is coming. Eagles for me bring Hope and Encouragement that no matter what we go through in life, God is always with us.
Last year for my 50th birthday I was taken by a couple of my friends to Sparks Lake in Oregon to kayak on this lake. The lake is formed from the water that runs off the mountains that surround it. As we paddled down the lake the scenery of broken top in front of us was so beautiful and breathtaking. Down near one part of the lake we saw a bald eagle. It was flying towards one of the trees. Another bird had caught a fish out of the lake and the eagle had spotted it and as the bird was flying away to eat his catch. The eagle swooped in and took the fish from the bird and then flew off into the tree. It was the most amazing sight I had ever seen. The feathers were each given to me by my two friends and I found the last one floating in the lake.
Leadership qualities of an eagle are they have powerful vision, they are fearless and tenacious and they fly really high and protect their young. I love that God does all these things that eagles do and more. He also protects us from everything.
Thank you Lord for sending me signs from above. No matter what we go through in our lives you will always be there for us guiding and protecting us. No matter what we go through in our lives we must trust Him.