As I sit today and reflect as this year is coming to a close. What is the greatest gift? For me and for so many others it’s accepting Jesus into your heart. For me it was a month and and half ago when my dad accepted Jesus into his heart. I had prayed for him and my family that’s all I ever want for them to know who Jesus is. When it seems like it would never happen as your loved one continues to decline. You pray harder and get all your friends to pray for him as well.
I never gave up hope even though it seemed like it would never happen. One of the hardest things is watching your loved one decline so much you bearly recognize them. They don’t know who you are anymore. That’s hard to watch. You know in your heart this day would come, but you push it aside. That grief process starts before they actually go.
I wondered a lot how my dad would accept Jesus before he died. Would I see him again? We never know even when you don’t recognize your loved ones or where you are anymore, where your heart is. I know now that Jesus didn’t take my dad home until He was ready. For me that was the greatest day for my dad to be found on the floor of his bedroom in the care home, and the caregivers telling my mom that he was praying on his knees. Wow that an amazing picture. I know that’s when Jesus came into his heart. What a glorious day. ❤️
The last day I saw my dad my mom and I went to a Christmas dinner. My dad was asleep the entire time except for about 15 minutes. While we ate I prayed silently for him and when I went to say goodbye, I told him I loved him and that I would see him again. I had no idea that would be the last time I saw him. Next time I see him it will be in heaven. That is the greatest gift I could ever imagine.
Even though I’m grieving him and the loss in my life and it’s a big loss. I’m so happy that he got to meet Jesus and sit with him and they had the biggest party for him in heaven. I often look into the sky knowing he’s looking out over our family. I feel him in my heart everyday.
I can’t imagine not knowing Jesus my whole life and waiting until it’s almost time to go. The best part of my life is having a relationship with Him. Spreading His good news and living the life that Jesus wants for me. I have Hope through my tears. I have gratitude for all that He’s done for me for all the years of my life. I have comfort, joy, love, unbelievable peace, humbleness, strength and so many more things. I have passion that Jesus has put into my heart for things that He wants me to fight for. Yes I can’t imagine my life without Jesus. To me that is the greatest gift….
Beauty from Ashes. 