Grief

I feel I’m in a season of grief right now. On Monday a gal I have known for a couple of years passed away from cancer. 9 months ago she was diagnosed with lymphoma and had pre cancer in her breast, her rib and her stomach. She and I used to message each other often and she would always update me on what was happening. I met my friend through my business she was on our team. What I loved about T was she always was so positive and I remember her telling me that she was going to beat this.

She started her chemo and even got to ring the bell for her final chemo. A week after her chemo she experienced really bad headaches and was taken to the hospital. After further testing they discovered that the cancer has spread and now was in her brain. The tumors grew quickly and the pain was so unbearable. Two weeks ago she was admitted into the hospital and last week woke up and demanded they take out her tube and she wanted another opinion.

They took out the tube and she went unconscious and never woke up again. She died peacefully Monday morning. T was an amazing woman that always was smiling and loved her family so much. She always was encouraging others and had the best attitude about everything even when things were hard for her. I always looked forward to seeing her in our zoom meetings and how much I learned from her.

This reminded me of when my best friend died. It brought up similar feelings. One of the nights I found out she was so sick I prayed a lot and into the night because I couldn’t sleep. I asked God why He takes those we love. Even though I know His ways are the best and He knows what we need. T was so young and had a young family.

I never understood why my best friend died two years. I’ve never been the same. I know I will see her again that is what helps and that now both her and T are now healed. I guess when it’s your time to go it’s your time.

Cancer is so different and it changes your entire family. I know people whose children are going through this now and doing well. For that I’m so thankful for. It’s just something I never have understood. I may need understand that but I’m so glad that now they are healed in heaven.

I’m still grieving my dad so as I said I’m obviously in a season of grief. Some days are harder than others. I’ve been trying to live each day to the fullest and not take anything for granted because life can be short.