One of my friends she’s been in my life for a long time until recently. I thought I could just accept that we are not friends anymore. I have tried and tried to tell myself that we won’t get back to how our friendship used to be. I can’t seem to move on. I miss our chats, texts our coffee dates. I miss just catching up and seeing her. It doesn’t seem to get easier in fact some days is really hard. I miss laughing with her and her company.
I drive by her place or I see something that reminds me of her. We have a past and now looks like no future. I’ve appolozied for letting her down and her not being able to trust me. When she told me that my heart broke because never in my wildest dreams would I ever imagine hurting her. It has put a wedge in our friendship and I don’t know how to make it right.
A long time ago one of my friends who I had known for a long time left my life. I was devestated. She was gone from my life for 10 years. We would see each other in passing and it was awkward and she was hurt. Another friend told me Sarah this person needs time. Time heals all things. I remember thinking oh sure that will never ever happen.
My best friend Wendy years before she passed away we got together with this friend I had fallen out with and another gal and we hung out and slowly that trust started to happen and over time the 4 of us hung out all the time. Now my friendship with this woman is stronger then it’s ever been. In fact I gained a new friend whom I adore her and her family. God gave me back one and I gained another.
So I pray that this person heals from the hurt I have caused and that in time she too will come back into my life. R, I miss you very much. I’m reminded of things we have done together and conversations we have had. I’m reminded about the fun trips we took together and how you have the most amazing gift of seeing how things come together in people.
I’m reminded everyday how life is short and we need to hold onto the things that are important to us everyday. I found a book today while I was cleaning a book of gratitude. It’s one I wrote years ago and inside the first thing I wrote in this book was R how grateful I am of her. ❤️
Beauty from Ashes. 