Those who know me know that I hate people who bully others. From what I know growing up being that person to peers at school to being bullied in school myself. I did it as a way to process my horrific home life and for me it was a survival skill. That’s not an excuse for what I did to others. Then I experienced it as a teenager and it’s not fun at all. One of greatest passions is to stand in the gap for others for children and adults who can’t do that for themselves. When I see it happening now I can’t stay quiet. The biggest reason is because when people knew that something was not right in my home, instead of speaking up they put their heads in the sand.
I hate confrontation but I will do this everyday for the rest of my life if I have to. Maybe this person does it to feel in control of their lives. Maybe they weren’t able to control it as a child/adult. I think of the reasons why they do it. I have heard them say that because of trauma in their lives it’s why they do the things they do.
I get that more than you know, but I also know that we have choices in our lives. Most of my life I have worked hard to get to where I am today. It did not come easy at all but I also didn’t like who I was. I was angry, I never smiled and blamed everyone around me. None of it was my fault.
I knew that there had to be a better life out there and I sought it through amazing counselers in my life. After a lot of years I took responsibility for what I had done. I forgave myself and I sought out healing from the Lord. It didn’t happen overnight, in fact it took years and years. I never ever use my trauma as an excuse for how I behaved. I just didn’t know. Not one soul in my life would ever know what happened to me as a child growing up. I’m a different person these past 9 years. I love who I am and where I am in my life. I am happy. I have an amazing family, friends and a job that I love so much. Life is good.
So what do you do when someone who seeks out the quiet people around you and targets them. This hits home for me and I’ve tried to be compassionate, caring and help them. It’s like they are out to conquer the entire world themselves. These decisions effect everyone around you and it’s like when you throw a rock into a lake and it creates rings around it, this is called ripples or waves. “These expanding circles are a result of the energy from the rock’s impact traveling outward on the water’s surface” ( taken from Google through AI )This is what happens when one person creates this ripple effect when they try to control others around them. The smooth waters no longer are smooth.
I’ve been giving it to to the Lord because I can’t control what others are doing. I can only control myself. I hope this person seeks out help because whatever they are doing now is not working for anyone especially themselves.
If your experiencing things in your life that feel out of control. There is help out there. I have an amazing Christian counselor who is helping me in this journey called life. Find someone you trust. ❤️
Beauty from Ashes. 