Goodbyes

First of all I hate goodbyes so I say see you later and we will meet again. That’s not always the case in fact I said goodbye to my family in Ireland and 3 years later I went back to visit them after graduation and I have never seen them again. What I missed the most out of all of that was my siblings? They grew up not knowing it remembering who I was and still don’t. That made me sad. Those circumstances I had no control over.

I’ve said goodbye to friends I met when I lived in the US and I’ve never seen them again either. Those relationships are hard as I still love and care about so many of them.

I’ve said goodbye to my best friend and she passed away and it still hurts and I miss her so incredibly much. I said goodbye to my dad after I kissed him on his head at his nursing home and told him I loved him. The next week he passed away.

Goodbyes bring up grief for me. Yesterday I said goodbye to people at school I’ve gotten to know and just like that they are gone. They leave your life some come back many don’t. I have felt sad and out of sorts since  that happened yesterday. Change I know is good but this doesn’t feel good and it causes my grief to float up to the surface. I’ve met amazing people in my life but I have also lost people and that’s hard as well.

This is another transition in my life. People will come and go like I have seen over the years. For now I will embrace these feelings and know that they do get better. ❤️