Author: walking in freedom

Today is a teary day but that’s ok. I miss the wisdom of my dad. I miss walking on his favorite beach with him. I miss chatting with him and him telling me how important I am to him. I wish I could hug him one more time. It’s been 7 months since he passed away. It seems like an eternity.

It’s ok to be sad because my grief is not all the time, in fact it’s hardly at all, but it will just appear and I know that he loved me no matter what. I feel that love in my heart everyday. I look at photos of him and smile. I recently went back to his beach and I could feel him there.

As I grieve my dad it brings up the memories of missing my best friend. At the end of the month it is our annual trip up island . The one the four of us did for years and years. I still remember Wendy’s last time. She was weak from all her chemo but she wanted to come and be with us. She slept in the van while we went into the Thrift shop the one we always visit. When we got to Coombs the place with the goats on the roof. We all got our photos together on the stone animals. We laughed and Wendy wanted an icecream. I remember her smiling from head to toe. It’s those simple things we sometimes miss.

Then we head into the country store to see what we can find. As we had a quiet moment together she told us that no matter what happened to her or not that we continue to do this trip. This will be our third trip without her. She’s with us and we feel it everytime we go. She’s watching out over us. So we will again and laugh and hang out and remember what an amazing friend she was to each of us.

So with grief days comes amazing memories of those we have lost. The best thing is that I get to see both of these people again when I die. I look forward to that day. Until now I will remember all the laughs, tears and everything else we shared. Make sure you tell your family and friends how much you love them. Life is precious and short. ❤️

I love summertime, it’s a time to decompress from my busy school year. It’s a time to hang out with my favorite kid and to swim, go the beach, mini golf and all the other adventures we get into. It’s a time to purge and get rid of all that clutter I seem to collect throughout the year. It’s a time to sit outside in the shade and read your favorite book.

I love sitting out on my patio and soaking up the sun or sitting on the shade with your favorite cold drink. Watching the humming birds come right beside your head to drink from the humming bird plant. The sound of the birds chirping loudly. We have so many little birds it’s crazy. They love to fight over the seeds in the feeder. Watching my rabbit Jonas stretched out in his cage with the fan blowing on his body. He loves to sit close to an ice bottle. He loves to play with the toys in his cage.

I love hanging out with my friends and catching up with people I don’t see very often. Laughing and visiting at my favorite coffee shop. Going on my yearly trip to Parksville. We have continued this tradition as Wendy told us to do it before she died. This will be our 3rd year without her. It’s like she’s here with us. We all feel her on our trip. I miss her everyday. I love going and hanging out with my two friends. We often laugh hard.

I love the long days not quite so hot but seems like you can do so much. I’m looking forward to another annual trip up to Qualicum Beach with two friends from school. It’s a time to hang out and make memories together. We have an amazing place this year across the street from the beach.

I’m blessed to have many amazing people in my life. In the summer it’s a time to slow down your body and finally I’ve gotten in that groove. I’m looking forward to my adventures this summer. Oh and time to sit and write a blog or two. Blogging is so calming for me and I love writing.

I’m also going to be creating some art another peaceful activity. Sounds like an amazing summer. ☀️

I’m sitting here reflecting on my last year of school. I found it hard in some ways but I also found it really rewarding. I was able to work with a teacher I had worked with the year before for 6 weeks. Then she had a student teacher and I got moved into a Grade 1 class to help out mainly two children who were really low in their work. I would teach them literacy. I had never worked with the teacher in that room and instantly we worked so well together. I love that she was a Christian as well. We worked amazingly together and I loved working in her room.

Just as I was getting in the groove of that class I was moved back to my original classroom but I was still able to work with the two children I had been working with. I loved that. I did that for 3 months then I got moved to a whole other Kindie class one that I had never worked with that teacher. I knew none of the kids either. It was like starting all over again at the beginning of the year. I worked into my schedule the two boys.

I also got to read everyday with two different children 15 minutes everyday after my lunch. It’s amazing how that 15 minutes makes all the difference. I got changed to another class it was nothing to do with me but another person. I guess I was the best choice for the class. I fell in love with the children and then the year was done. That’s tough but I got to know many children this year and work with amazing teachers. I love the teacher I had. Loved how she ran her classroom. I get to work with her again next year. Hopefully I can stay for the whole year.

Even though there was so much change I realized that I was able to help lots of teachers and I do know they appreciated all that I brought to their classrooms. I found I shone. I learned so much about myself that there’s nothing that I can’t do and I loved the challenge.

I love how God uses you no matter where you are in life. I realized that I love this school so much and that I have many good relationships with families and teachers. ❤️

First of all I hate goodbyes so I say see you later and we will meet again. That’s not always the case in fact I said goodbye to my family in Ireland and 3 years later I went back to visit them after graduation and I have never seen them again. What I missed the most out of all of that was my siblings? They grew up not knowing it remembering who I was and still don’t. That made me sad. Those circumstances I had no control over.

I’ve said goodbye to friends I met when I lived in the US and I’ve never seen them again either. Those relationships are hard as I still love and care about so many of them.

I’ve said goodbye to my best friend and she passed away and it still hurts and I miss her so incredibly much. I said goodbye to my dad after I kissed him on his head at his nursing home and told him I loved him. The next week he passed away.

Goodbyes bring up grief for me. Yesterday I said goodbye to people at school I’ve gotten to know and just like that they are gone. They leave your life some come back many don’t. I have felt sad and out of sorts since  that happened yesterday. Change I know is good but this doesn’t feel good and it causes my grief to float up to the surface. I’ve met amazing people in my life but I have also lost people and that’s hard as well.

This is another transition in my life. People will come and go like I have seen over the years. For now I will embrace these feelings and know that they do get better. ❤️