I am a women who loves to write and I write because for so long I lived in darkness and never spoke about my life and now I want to share my life and my story with others to help and encourage them on this road we call life.
I love this topic so much because I had the best teacher ever growing up. She was a person who I trusted and she helped me so much. She was kind, caring, compassionate and understanding. I loved spending time with her. She helped me love reading and she made it possible for me to read as many books as I could. She always smiled at me and made me feel so good when I often felt terrible.
I work with teachers at school and the ones that I love and respect are the ones who really love and care about their students. They are flexible so if someone is having a hard time they stop their teachings and do what is best for their students. They build up trust and stand in the corners of their students.
It’s hard to be a teacher in this day and age. You need consistency as well as a balance of caring and compassion. Once you build up that trust the children respect you more and you can work so much better with them. ❤️
First of all I hate goodbyes so I say see you later and we will meet again. That’s not always the case in fact I said goodbye to my family in Ireland and 3 years later I went back to visit them after graduation and I have never seen them again. What I missed the most out of all of that was my siblings? They grew up not knowing it remembering who I was and still don’t. That made me sad. Those circumstances I had no control over.
I’ve said goodbye to friends I met when I lived in the US and I’ve never seen them again either. Those relationships are hard as I still love and care about so many of them.
I’ve said goodbye to my best friend and she passed away and it still hurts and I miss her so incredibly much. I said goodbye to my dad after I kissed him on his head at his nursing home and told him I loved him. The next week he passed away.
Goodbyes bring up grief for me. Yesterday I said goodbye to people at school I’ve gotten to know and just like that they are gone. They leave your life some come back many don’t. I have felt sad and out of sorts since that happened yesterday. Change I know is good but this doesn’t feel good and it causes my grief to float up to the surface. I’ve met amazing people in my life but I have also lost people and that’s hard as well.
This is another transition in my life. People will come and go like I have seen over the years. For now I will embrace these feelings and know that they do get better. ❤️
I start my day off with gratitude and prayer. I pray for my day and what’s happening at work, with friends etc. This is what grounds me everyday. I love thinking about 3 things everyday I’m grateful for. Gratitude changes your mindset. I put on all my drug free patches and take my dog out.
My Spirituality is everything to me in my life. Without it I would not be alive today. In fact I would not have survived my life with the Lord in it. I saw where He protected in so many ways growing up. I love the Lord with all my heart. He’s the greatest part of my life.
My Spirituality keeps me grounded. It gives me peace. The path I’m on is part of the Lord’s way. It’s not always been easy my life but it’s easier when I have JESUS in my life.
Self care is very important to me because I work a very busy job and I need down time, especially when I come home from work. I take time out for me. I love to read or taking a walk. I love music and I especially love to blog. It relaxes me and makes me feel calm. I love hanging out with friends and just laughing. I love spending time with my dog and tending to my patio garden. After self care I then feel rejuvenated and ready to tackle the world again. ❤️
My biggest time waster everyday is me scrolling through my Instagram or Facebook. I’ve been convicted by this lately. I started not being on social media on Sundays about a year ago and I love that I don’t have to worry about what is happening online. I am thinking of adding another day to this. It’s nice to unplug for the day.
I realized that there are so many other things I could do that day. I hang out with friends or go visit my mom. I have picked back up reading again and I love to sit and read it’s so relaxing. I have started writing more. I try to everyday. I have more time to spend with the Lord and listen to worship music. I look forward to my Sundays now. ✝️
Those who know me know that I hate people who bully others. From what I know growing up being that person to peers at school to being bullied in school myself. I did it as a way to process my horrific home life and for me it was a survival skill. That’s not an excuse for what I did to others. Then I experienced it as a teenager and it’s not fun at all. One of greatest passions is to stand in the gap for others for children and adults who can’t do that for themselves. When I see it happening now I can’t stay quiet. The biggest reason is because when people knew that something was not right in my home, instead of speaking up they put their heads in the sand.
I hate confrontation but I will do this everyday for the rest of my life if I have to. Maybe this person does it to feel in control of their lives. Maybe they weren’t able to control it as a child/adult. I think of the reasons why they do it. I have heard them say that because of trauma in their lives it’s why they do the things they do.
I get that more than you know, but I also know that we have choices in our lives. Most of my life I have worked hard to get to where I am today. It did not come easy at all but I also didn’t like who I was. I was angry, I never smiled and blamed everyone around me. None of it was my fault.
I knew that there had to be a better life out there and I sought it through amazing counselers in my life. After a lot of years I took responsibility for what I had done. I forgave myself and I sought out healing from the Lord. It didn’t happen overnight, in fact it took years and years. I never ever use my trauma as an excuse for how I behaved. I just didn’t know. Not one soul in my life would ever know what happened to me as a child growing up. I’m a different person these past 9 years. I love who I am and where I am in my life. I am happy. I have an amazing family, friends and a job that I love so much. Life is good.
So what do you do when someone who seeks out the quiet people around you and targets them. This hits home for me and I’ve tried to be compassionate, caring and help them. It’s like they are out to conquer the entire world themselves. These decisions effect everyone around you and it’s like when you throw a rock into a lake and it creates rings around it, this is called ripples or waves. “These expanding circles are a result of the energy from the rock’s impact traveling outward on the water’s surface” ( taken from Google through AI )This is what happens when one person creates this ripple effect when they try to control others around them. The smooth waters no longer are smooth.
I’ve been giving it to to the Lord because I can’t control what others are doing. I can only control myself. I hope this person seeks out help because whatever they are doing now is not working for anyone especially themselves.
If your experiencing things in your life that feel out of control. There is help out there. I have an amazing Christian counselor who is helping me in this journey called life. Find someone you trust. ❤️
Which food, when you eat it, instantly transports you to childhood?
I don’t have many happy memories from my childhood. Today of all days I went grocery shopping after physiotherapy. As I walked through the store I came across English peas in the pods. I brought some and decided to have some for lunch. As I opened the pods the peas were stuck in the pods. I pulled them out and ate them and immediately was transported back to when I was a little girl. The memories of sitting in the garden with my sister Lynn and eating the peas. Our dad used to grow them in his garden. He grew all sorts of things.
I love how you pull the peas out of the pods and they are sweet and perfect. We would run home from school and go and eat all sorts of veggies out of the garden. Our dad always wondered what happened to his peas. My sister and I would just laugh. What are the odds that I would experience this memory today as it’s the topic for today’s blog? That’s not a coincidence. ❤️
Today is Father’s Day and six months ago to the day my dad passed away. He passed away on a Sunday the 15th. When he passed away my work gave me this white orchid. It was delivered to my home. It bloomed for a long time. After the last flower dropped off, I just watered it and put it in the window. I noticed buds starting to grow on it. The biggest bud is opening into a beautiful white flower.
I don’t believe in happenstances that is decided to bloom right at Father’s Day and 6 months later. I love that even though it makes me tear up. I miss my dad so much. I miss so many things about him. He had AMAZING stories and he loved to laugh. His smile would brighten up your entire world. He loved adventures and went on many with my mom. He loved reading and you often could find him outside sitting in the shade reading his book.
His face would light up when I came over to visit. When he got dementia every 6 weeks I would go and spend the weekend with him while my mom went to have her own respite. I loved spending time with him. He loved music and we would put on the old records and he would remember all the lyrics. They lived near the beach and we would walk for hours along the shore. He knew every inch of that beach. He dad walked out for 40 years.
I have a bowl on my patio full of rocks and shells he’s collected and given to me. I even have some driftwood. Sometimes we would sit on a log and look out at the water and watch the boats and the people. He especially loved the children and dogs. We would order pizza and have it delivered to the house. He always told me it was the best he’d ever had.
My dad gave the best hugs. I miss him so much. This is my first Father’s Day without him. I wish we could walk on the beach one more time and he could tell me his stories. I have so many amazing stories about him. My mom and I are doing to hang out tomorrow. It’s hard on my mom she misses her best friend so much. Life is definitely not the same for any of us with my dad here. Happy first Father’s Day in heaven. Know what you are missed and loved so very much. ❤️
One of my favorite moments of my life was meeting my mom after being separated from her for 12 years. I didn’t remember who she was as I was almost two when my brother and I were taken away from her. I will never forget that day as long as I live. The doors of the airport opened and this woman with red hair came running out of the crowd. She went over to my brother and hugged him. I just stood there.
I had dreamed about my mom for a very long time. What was she like? I can’t imagine how she felt after seeing her children after 12 years of separation . The man standing beside her was the man who became my dad in my life. Even though things were tough and hard at the beginning. She’s also the person who took my brother and I in after all those years. I had a home and people who loved me, no matter what and who helped me with so many things I just didn’t know about. My life changed forever when I met my mom and my stepdad. ❤️
Beauty from Ashes. 