Author: walking in freedom

I feel I’m in a season of grief right now. On Monday a gal I have known for a couple of years passed away from cancer. 9 months ago she was diagnosed with lymphoma and had pre cancer in her breast, her rib and her stomach. She and I used to message each other often and she would always update me on what was happening. I met my friend through my business she was on our team. What I loved about T was she always was so positive and I remember her telling me that she was going to beat this.

She started her chemo and even got to ring the bell for her final chemo. A week after her chemo she experienced really bad headaches and was taken to the hospital. After further testing they discovered that the cancer has spread and now was in her brain. The tumors grew quickly and the pain was so unbearable. Two weeks ago she was admitted into the hospital and last week woke up and demanded they take out her tube and she wanted another opinion.

They took out the tube and she went unconscious and never woke up again. She died peacefully Monday morning. T was an amazing woman that always was smiling and loved her family so much. She always was encouraging others and had the best attitude about everything even when things were hard for her. I always looked forward to seeing her in our zoom meetings and how much I learned from her.

This reminded me of when my best friend died. It brought up similar feelings. One of the nights I found out she was so sick I prayed a lot and into the night because I couldn’t sleep. I asked God why He takes those we love. Even though I know His ways are the best and He knows what we need. T was so young and had a young family.

I never understood why my best friend died two years. I’ve never been the same. I know I will see her again that is what helps and that now both her and T are now healed. I guess when it’s your time to go it’s your time.

Cancer is so different and it changes your entire family. I know people whose children are going through this now and doing well. For that I’m so thankful for. It’s just something I never have understood. I may need understand that but I’m so glad that now they are healed in heaven.

I’m still grieving my dad so as I said I’m obviously in a season of grief. Some days are harder than others. I’ve been trying to live each day to the fullest and not take anything for granted because life can be short.

I started with the Super Patch company it will be two years in July. These patches have changed my life so that I now continue working in a job I love.

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I want to thank all my readers and all the people who have some of the most amazing photos. Thank you for allowing me to share them with others on my blog.

When I started the journey of blogging it was basically a woman getting thoughts out. I have seen amazing healing through my blog and the biggest part was being able to share my memoirs. I decided to do it on my blog because I have siblings that are still alive and I wanted to make sure what I wrote never hurt them. To be able to share things I’ve only ever written on paper, has been amazing.

Sharing our stories is what helps others even if it’s just one person who reads what we write and is impacted by it. I would not be where I am today without JESUS. He is the one who helped me survive and He is the one who brought so much healing through my writings. I then discovered that I love to write and it’s something that brings me much peace no matter what is going on. I always tell people that my blog is Jesus’s and my story.

Thank you to those who encouraged me to write even when I was nervous about it. It’s become one is my greatest accomplishments.

I am the woman I am today because of finding my voice. Don’t ever be shy about who you are. I am the woman I am today because of my past. My strength comes from JESUS and He’s the one who prompts me to write.

Thank you so much for reading and liking my posts. ❤️

It’s been a wild couple of weeks. When you think your settled in your job and love what you’re doing. You get changed into a different classroom where you know none of the children. It’s like starting out at the beginning of the new year. New kids and a teacher you’ve never worked with before. Even though the change was hard for the children at first when you love on them and help them they love having you in their class.

There is a person in my school who is hard to get to know. In fact I often hear her tell me that she does things because of her trauma. That stood out to me and I thought about it. I have experienced massive trauma in my life and I’m not minimizing her trauma at all. Not one person who doesn’t know me, would ever know that I even had trauma in my life. I never have ever said oh this is because of my trauma. Maybe it’s because I’ve worked through mine a lot.

Yes I have had trauma in my life but it never defines who I am or what I do in my life. I have chosen to live my life and my trauma made me stronger and who I am today. My heart is massive for people especially those who are hurting.

What trauma has shown me is we know it changes you but the gift God has given me is to see others that have struggles and it sometimes comes out in your daily lives. I have compassion and understanding. I wasn’t always like that in fact this woman reminds me of how I was before I was healed. It just stood out to me what she said. I’ve been praying this woman finds her own peace and hope. ❤️

My mom is having hip surgery today. I’m been thinking about it and today when I woke up my tummy was off and tears flooded my eyes. The loss of my dad came flooding back and it was hard to stop. Even though hip surgery is a routine surgery it makes you want to hold those you love even closer to you.

I miss my dad everyday. I miss his hugs his smile, his advice he gave the best advice. I miss his stories he always had lots. He loved Spring and flowers, humming birds coming to the feeder. He loved to garden and I miss our chats and laughs. Tomorrow is supposed to be really warm so I’m going to go and hang out at his favorite beach. I miss our walks in there. So many things I miss about him.

My mom’s surgery is a couple of hours hopefully this morning and then a couple of months of recovery. After her recovery we will have a joint birthday and celebration of life for my dad. I’m so grateful that my brother is here to help my mom as well. I guess when things are out of your control it brings up many emotions. I was surprised about that but I’m still in a season is grief when though it’s less and less.

Today is a day for me to look after myself and not worry about things in can’t control.  My mom will be just fine. God’s got her in the palm of His hands. I know my dad is walking the beaches in heaven and the best part of that is I get to see him again and I’ve got the biggest hug for him. For now I have all the memories and I can remember them when I’m the midst of tears.