Feeling safe in this big world

Walking into a new school each day or week can be scary for me sometimes. I like knowing where I’m going but on call you don’t get that consistency. I see a lot of different children every day they come from all walks of life. Some are leaders and really outgoing, some of them are not sure where they fit. Some are extremely shy and others just trying to get by in life. I’ve always been drawn to those who stand out from everyone else. Probably because I stood out as a child. I never knew where I fit in and no matter how hard you try your just different.

Those are the children I’m drawn to. I love when there is consistency in my life because when there is I can start to draw in those children. Trust for them is huge. I know all to well what that is like. They want to know someone cares for them and appreciate s them for where they are at. They crave attention and seek it out. I see myself in many of the children I see each day. I understand and I know how to help. I’m also drawn to the children who have autism I make sure I stop in the hallway everyday and say hi and acknowledge them. They are often passed by especially with their peers. That’s a lovely place to be.

On the other side of this I see their peers reaching out to them to help them. That puts a smile on my face. If we teach our children acceptance then they will model that to others no matter who they are. EVERY CHILD MATTERS. I recently built up a bond with a boy with autism. He was a really bright boy who has a really good sense of humour. There always is a fine line with him but I learned how to navigate him and see the signs of when he would escalate. I spent half an hour with him everyday while his worker went on lunch. We played together and he made up all the rules he wanted and we laughed together. I love how God gives me the tools I need for each child.

I hear the same thing after spending a week in a class with children why can’t you stay we need you here. I love that I’m wanted wherever I go. I’m making a difference in children’s lives. I love that so much. If I can make one child feel safe in this big world then I’ve done my job.

I used to blame everyone for my horrible childhood but that is what has helped me see children in a light most people miss. I see the brokenhearted and the lost and those that just don’t fit in. I have so much patience and understanding and kindness and empathy in my heart. That has made me who I am today.

What are you good at in your lives? Don’t shy away from it. God will use you in what you’re passions are.