I feel I’m being challenged to death right now. I wish my life would slow down. It’s been a tough three months and does not seem to be slowing down. My husband leaving has been the hardest thing for me. So many unknowns but one thing I do know more than anything else is that I fully trust the Lord with all my heart and soul. It’s not always easy. Even though I’m going through this I see God in so much of what I do. He’s brought awesome people into my life. One of those woman is my friend and I have grown to love. She’s always there for me and these past months I’m not sure I could do my life as well as I have. She understands so much about grief and loss and has stood by me in more ways than I could imagine. I love how we both can laugh and cry together. This past week I hurt my back at work and today she came over and helped me organize things in my home that just leave me some what overwhelmed.
God has given me another opportunity to go back to the school I love so much. I find it really hard hurting myself and not being able to work in the position I applied for. I know this is a temporary setback but I find myself second guessing myself. I realized when I needed money God gave me money where I least expected it. Trusting God is all I have in this period of grief and adjustment.
One of the positive things that has come out of this is I’m finding each day more and more peace and that I’m starting to find out who Sarah is and I’m loving that about myself. God has given me so many people and friends and an awesome family. He gives me just what I need to go on. God uses people in my life to give me hope and encouragement like Kim’s book encountering our wild God.
So each day I must continue to Trust you that this temporary and it soon will be a blur in my life once forgotten and on to something else. It doesn’t matter what your going through in your life. Life can be really hard and difficult. Be kind and loving to yourself and for me I must not be so hard on myself. God is looking after me always. Thank you Lord for that. Thanks to all who have prayed for me lately for my back, my job God has heard our prayers and He’s got an awesome plan for me. I just need to be patient. As the saying goes patience is a virtue.
Beauty from Ashes. 