The important lessons in life.

It’s been 9 weeks since my dad passed away. In some ways it feels like so much longer. The last time I saw him was December 8th for a Christmas lunch at the care home where he was. A week later he passed away. He didn’t look good when I last saw him and he was fading. He woke up for about 15 minutes that afternoon and seemed very confused. I hope that when I kissed him on his forehead and told him that I loved him, that he knew I was there. That was the last time I saw him.

Grief is hard but something that I must go through. I used to think that feeling would kill me. When I had numbed life before. Now grief hurts but what I’ve have noticed from it, is it produces lots of good memories. I was with my mom yesterday we talked about my dad and grief. I wish I could just hug my dad one more time. He gave the best hugs.

A friend gave me this chocolate bear for Valentine’s Day and when I took it out of the box, tears rolled down my face. My dad had a bear like this and the next size up one. My mom gave them to him. His nickname for my mom was Bear. He would never eat them in fact for up to a year or so they were on the table light right beside where he ate his meals. They faced him on the lamp and when you’d all him if he wanted to eat them. He’d tell you no they were his buddies.

So much of what my dad taught me I have remembered. He taught me so many things that I can take into my life forever. Buying my first car he hid his car around the corner because of they knew him and his wife both had Toyota’s, I wouldn’t get a good price. This was my car not theirs. Yup it worked. He told me that if we had to leave that I needed to follow his lead no matter how I felt.

One time driving home in hit a deer in one is the dark roads near my house. I was mortified and drove home. It pulled off the plastic piece on my car so the next day my dad took out the deer fur and crazy glued it back together. He often crazy glued things back together or used his duct tape.

He was a wise man he helped me with many things. If I had a problem he always knew how to help me with it. Sometimes I didn’t like his answer but I saw that it made total sense. He was a problem solver and he protected me.  As I said before he loved me so much and I him. I miss him very much. I hope that my memories of him never fade. Until we meet again. ❤️