For so long I had no idea how to end my memoirs. It seemed like their were more pieces to the puzzle but I had no idea what they were. I now see God using me in different areas of my life to come to where I am today. His plans for me are just the way He planned it. Today I heard that it’s easier for someone else to see where you are in life. It’s harder for me when we are right in the middle of it.
I’m just at the end of my week 3 with my nutrition program. I feel amazing. I eat every 3 hours protein, fat and carbs. I love how simple it is to eat. I quickly realized that it’s not just about food. Food is a very small part of my program.
There are 6 spinning plates that need to balanced. Nutrition, sleep, stress, hydration, exercise and supplementation. I’m learning the root of why I ate the way I did and how I had a really unhealthy relationship with food at an early age. How I used food as a way to soothe my emotions.
I realized today that I went from one addiction to the next one and without knowing the root cause I replaced two other addictions with food. I no longer struggle with the other two but food became a comfort for me. It’s spun my life out of control and I had no idea how to stop doing the same things over and over again. Jumping from one diet to the next messes up your thinking.
I hated going to weight watchers to step on a scale in front of a staff member who would critique how you were doing. I started coming in later but they would catch you at the end. I felt so much shame and a failure and it made me want to eat more. I watched the faces of the people who came every week. I was not the only person. I was so glad when we switched to online.
I stopped going when my membership ran out mid January. I then wondered how was I going to do this alone. I met an amazing woman who is a coach for PFC3. She gave me tips and different things and then I won my scholarship.
I started to unlearn all the things I had been taught in all the diets I’ve done. I have learned why I did and do the things I do. I have 3 amazing coaches who help me and challenge me in my thinking.
Slowly and steady I see so much progress. My biggest thing I see is my joints don’t hurt hardly at all. That’s massive for me. I sleep well and have tons of energy all day long. I had tears of joy this morning because I’ve never felt like this before. My mindset is amazing and I love learning all I am. I love that this is my new for the rest of my life. I never want to go back to where I was.
What I love about this program is nobody is teaching this. Who knew that balancing your blood sugars and your hormones grounded your entire body? Putting your body into homeostasis which means balance would make you feel so good. I feel like I won the lottery. So as I continue my journey of wellness the puzzle slowly gets completed. 🧩
Beauty from Ashes. 