Have you ever wondered how your life would turn out? When I wasyounger I always dreamed of a better life. We all want out lives to be happy and be married to your best friend, we want to be thinner, we want to have kids and live the best life ever.
What does that life actually look like? Those were all the things that I wanted in life or do I thought. What happens if you found a different path where you are really happy now and it’s got nothing to do with these things. What is happiness and how do we want to live our lives? I thought happiness was all those things. After being married for 19 years that was not the happiness that lasted.
A year ago I was the sickest I’ve ever been. I was told that if I continued the way I was going that I was headed for stroke and heart attack. I had fatty liver and type 2 diabetes was around the corner. I was the heaviest I’ve ever been. Lost weight, gained it back, lost it again and gained back even more.
I’ve chased all the diets, counted all the calories, half starved myself to just find myself filled with shame and guilt. Every time I stepped on the scale I would cringe and how had I lost no weight when I had followed the last diet to the tee. I felt like a failure. I couldn’t even get this right. I hated myself and avoided mirrors. I would take clothes home when I went shopping and try them on to avoid the all around mirrors. Who wants to look at yourself from all sides?
I had so much metabolic disease in my body. My body was breaking down slowly. I knew something needed to change but how do you change when nobody is teaching what you need. I had joined a gut health group and learned a lot about balancing your blood sugars. I found another community that talked about not only balancing your blood sugars but a healthy way to eat. I tried to learn as much as I could.
At the end of April I listened to a 3 day webinar about how to change your life and every single thing in that webinar that was me. That was my life. I heard about hope really this sounded too good to be true. At the end of the webinar you could apply for a scholarship. I wanted this whatever these people had. I shared my story of where I had been to where I was 3 months ago.
I got the call that I was the winner. What I decided that I had been given the greatest gift so I committed to myself that no matter how hard it was I was going to do whatever I needed to be successful. I showed up everyday no matter what was happening in my life. I learned why I did the things I did and got to the root of the issues.
The biggest thing was I am in control of my life. I can control what I say, think or do. I can’t control what others do think or say. Those things are not in my control. What others thought used to derail me they don’t anymore. I’ve learned so many tools and when life shows up I don’t rush out to eat junk food. I can stop and think how I can deal with the situation without reacting.
I threw out my scale the first week and that was the best freedom ever. I see so many non scale victories. I feel amazing with tons of energy. I have lost 5 inches off my stomach and my clothes are baggy. I love me for who I am for the first time in my life.
I’m happy so happy with my life. I’m STRONG, FUELED AND FREE. I know how to straighten my crown in all situations. I have that inner peace that I so wanted in my life. I feel so much gratitude everyday and I feel so grounded where I want to be everyday. Wow this happiness is empowering. I have found my true purpose in life.
So yes my happiness came in a way that I never expected and I have balanced my blood sugars and my hormones. I don’t sick hardly anymore. So I’ve just finished my trifecta with my coaches, and now I get to practice all the things I’ve learned. I get to continue living this amazing life. Happiness comes in a way that you don’t expect, so next time you think you want something a certain way. Maybe it will come in a way that you least expect.
Thsnks for reading. ❤️
Beauty from Ashes. 