Growing up in Ireland

What’s something most people don’t know about you?

I lived in Ireland for 12 years and grew up there as a child in the 80’s. I went to a private school for children from all different nominations. People from all over the world came to bring their children there. Boys were the only boarders at the school. I met a range of people from every corner of the world.

Life in Ireland at that time was hard. Our family was poor with 7 children and we often lived in homes that weren’t built property so we often had no heat. It was very drafty with the wind that whistled between the walls. I walked a mile and a half from my home with my younger sister to school each day. We took the train or the bus. I remember the old trains that moved slowly along the tracks. One of the places we crossed it was so steep down the cliff into the ocean. There was a tunnel that the train had no lights on and so it was pitch black I’m the train so we would jump on your friends unexpectedly and run back to your seat. They had no idea who jumped them.

I went to an Irish camp where you only had to speak Gaelic at. I went because my brother was supposed to keep an eye on me. That never happened so I was bullied by all the older girls. The camp was in Galway which is an amazing scenic part of Ireland. People there still speak only Gaelic. When you would go on a store you were expected to speak Gaelic. We would just point what we wanted and dumped our money on the counter. During meal times at the camp you had to only speak Gaelic. I learned the few odd words like im for butter. I remember camp was a long time but I learned more words. We took Gaelic in school also French and Latin. 😊

Re-centring my life

This morning I was home sick so I sat with my pumpkin spice latte and I listened to the pastor of my church read Psalm 40. It’s a Psalm I’m very familiar with, with some verses that God gives me. I’ve been wrestling with things at work now for the last month and they don’t seem to get better in fact some days it seems worse. I hate conflict so much. This morning I read to wait patiently. Well that’s easier said then done but I do know that God has this all under His control and timing. Waiting is hard.

I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire. He set my feet on a rock and He gave me a firm place to stand. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear the Lord and put their trust in Him.” Psalm 40: 1-3

Today as I sat here I realized that all the good things that God has done for me. I have so many blessings that in difficult times we tend to forget what we actually have. I missed God’s love in all of this and that He’s bigger then anything that is happening around me. His love and faithfulness protect me.

When I get pushed into a territory of conflict I react to what is happening around me and instead of thinking about others I get caught in what I need. I forgot about what do the people around me need, especially the children. The fighting Sarah comes out to protect me but all it does is make me sick. It’s amazing how when I feel defeated or in conflict with those around me how my body just shuts down and I get sick.

That is how my body reacts to stress from the past. It has done this my whole life and so here we are again. I feel helpless and yes without God in my life you feel like that. I feel beaten down but I forgot that God’s love is always flowing through me and that I’m not that helpless child that I was in my past. Standing up for what is right is hard but God has this and I’m not fighting this battle alone.

I re-centring this morning and gave it all to the Lord. I let go of the bitterness I could feel Welling in my heart and asked God to take care of it. I breathed in God’s goodness and breathed out all the stress, anxiety and everything that is not from the Lord. I shed lots of tears and remembered the path that I was on before I got distracted and strayed away.

That’s a very humbling process but something I needed to do. Moving forward I need to keep my eyes on Him. I need to read the word everyday and pray and guard my heart. Now I feel that Serene peace that only comes from Him. 🦅

Lazy days….

Do lazy days make you feel rested or unproductive?

I love lazy days because yes I feel more rested. I have a very busy job and my downtime is so important to me. I love being able to stay in my PJ’s with a pumpkin spice and sit and read a good book. I love doing puzzles or sit and watch a good movie. I love that there is no schedule so you can plan whatever you want to do.

My favorite is hanging out with friends at my favorite coffee shop catching up with life and sitting and watching the swirls on the lake at people paddle by. So the flip side of that is yes it can be very unproductive but that can wait. It can when it’s only you at home. Lazy days are the best.

A season of Thanksgiving

This weekend it is Canadian Thanksgiving. I have so much to be thankful for. How I think about things changed when my friends and the place where we had called home was changed with hurricane Helene. First of all I’m so eternally grateful that they were all ok when so many weren’t. It’s still heartbreaking to me that there was so much devestation. This hit me hard.

I’m now thankful for the simplest of things. So much we take for granted but this opened my eyes. I’m thankful that I have amazing friends and family. Hang on to those you love. I’m thankful for people who helped shape me into who I am today. Who stood behind me and believed in me when I felt as though I didn’t know how.

I’m thankful for having faith and that I have in my Lord. I’m so grateful that I know Him and how with Him my life how much it is changed. I’m thankful for my church community even though sometimes it’s hard to be there.

I’m thankful for having the opportunity to be able to help children and be that trusting person in their lives. I’m thankful for having a dog that keeps me company often and makes me laugh with his silliness.

I’m thankful that even though life seemed too short that I had a best friend that shared so much about her life and that we shared many of the same passions. I miss her everyday but so glad she was able to be in my life. I love that I will see her again in heaven.

Don’t ever take your life for granted because as I see everyday its precious. Be thankful for those small things and so much to be thankful for this season.

I’m so thankful for this community for each of you who take time to read what I write and for the community. Thank you 😊

What are you thankful for? Happy Thanksgiving.

Standing up for what is right…

Anybody who knows me, knows that I hate conflict so much and I try to avoid it at all costs. This week I had to stand up for myself. What was being asked of me was something that I’ve fought very hard not to have to do. When I was demanded that I needed to do it. I stood on what I believed in and I told them that I was not supposed to be doing that and I didn’t want to do it, or that I liked it. I’ve never done that before, usually I just do what is expected of me whether it be right or wrong.

I’ve been learning how to set boundaries so that these things don’t happen in my life. I have noticed that when I set boundaries people around me are not happy at all. In fact it makes them push harder to get what they want. I don’t like been demanded to do things, there are nice ways to say things. To me it’s disrespectful and rude to do that to anyone. I certainly don’t like being treated like that.

Things didn’t get better so I reached out for help to see whether I had to do what was asked of me. I realized I had choices on what was happening so I moved forward with what was suggested to me. I realized that I need to stand on what I believe in no matter how hard it is for me, because if I don’t things will never change. In fact they seem to get worse.

I had zero choices as a kid and I just followed along good or bad and I never wanted to rock the boat. Now as an adult I have to stand on what I believe is the right thing to do. It’s a very hard thing for me , but it also is very empowering to stand in the gap for yourself and others. All I want is to be able to do what I love each day. Life never seems simple.

One of my strengths in life is standing up for others and speaking against things that are wrong. This is why I have these strong values. God gave me a heart that  cares for others so much. It will be interesting to see how this all works out. Maybe another blog for another day.  Until then don’t compromise on things that are put on you that are not ok. You deserve respect. 😊

Devestation all around but God moving in the mountains.

This past Thursday hurricane Helene swept through Asheville, Black mountain , North Carolina. It destroyed many towns it is path and so many people lost their homes, their lives and everything they once new. Black mountain, North Carolina is where my husband and I used to live. We lived there for 4 years and this was our community. To see it completely destroyed in so many ways was horrifying. I reached out to many of my friends good friends who live so around there. Some I heard from others nothing. All I could do from afar was pray for them. Pray that they were ok and their loved ones.

Two weeks before the hurricane came through they had mass flooding in this area and already the creeks and rivers were high. The hurricane just made it a 100 times worse. It came with such force and so many roads were washed out and flooded and those who lived up higher they had massive mud slides.

I realized that they were left without power, cell service, and no water. They say it will be weeks before water is restored. That’s why I didn’t hear from my friends . Each one reached out and told me they were ok, but so many people are not ok. My heart is broken for them because this was our home and yes you can rebuild and restore but you can’t replace family members.

Something I have seen and I had forgotten that when we lived in the South,  Southern hospitality is amazing. People come together to help out even those they don’t know. People step up and come forward and help no matter what the cost is.

My friend sent me that Bible photo this morning As I was walking in a field near a friends house that was washed away, I walked upon this….. this Bible was laying there open just like this. Jesus is much bigger than any storm. That’s what the person said who posted this and yes she’s exactly right. When things like this happen it makes you hold onto your loved ones more and you often seek out God for your refuge.

Please continue to pray for those who live in and around the Asheville area. Not just this area but this hurricane was wide spread. This hit home hard for me. Thorough out it all I love how people see God working in and through the lives of so many people. ❤️

The power of prayer

Last week I read in a newsletter from the ranch I love so much that a person I’ve gotten to know almost died on July 4th. It was extremely hard to read and wow her testimonial well it’s totally amazing. She had a massive heart attack and had to get her heart reset and had chest compressions on the way to the hospital. Wow that’s extremely scary. Before all that happened she told her husband to call the ranch and ask them to pray.

We know God hears our prayers and yes He doesn’t always answer them the way we want them. We do know that the power of prayer is amazing.

The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working.” (James 5:14-16) “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

Not only did my friend get to the hospital she also had emergency surgery and suffered a heart attack. She was one of the lucky ones. Obviously her time on this earth is not done yet. For that I’m internally grateful. I hope that one day soon I can paddle down Sparks Lake with you again my friend.

Sparks Lake, Oregon

I’ve seen God do amazing things with prayer. I have another friend who had a brain aneurysm and was in a coma for a long time and she was not supposed to live and God brought her back and everyday she’s worked so hard to get her life back. She’s another woman that I admire. Not only in her faith but that she never gave up no matter how hard it was.

Matthew 18:20 – There is power in joining together to pray and petition. Jesus even says that when we align our hearts in prayer, He is with us as we do it!

“In Psalm 34:17-18, it says, “The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” When we pour out our hearts to God in prayer, He listens and offers us His peace and comfort.”

There are so many promises in God’s word. I pray everytime I get a chance. I love driving to work and praying before I go to school. I still find things I’m grateful for and my biggest one this week was that my friend is still with us. Thank you Lord for hearing our prayers. I reached out to her and told her that I wish I had told her sooner that I love her.

Reach out to those you love and don’t take anything for granted because life is precious and should never be taken for granted. I’m in awe about what God does and continues to do in our lives. I’m truly blessed. ❤️

Love sharing what’s on my heart

Why do you blog?

I started blogging at a time when I really wanted to write and I realized what I had to share was what needed to be said. I needed people to know that no matter what they have been through in their lives that there was always Hope out there.

I’ve written my memoirs on my blog because my story needed a voice. When your not allowed to speak out it up for what you’re going through, it’s so nice to write about things. I love blogging is like breathing for me.

I love reading what others write about and I love being part of this amazing blogging community. I think more people should write.

Last weekend before school starts

How are you feeling right now?

This is the last weekend before school starts for the year. I am looking forward to another year with an amazing teacher and seeing who will be in my kindergarten class this year. Last year was awesome. Such an amazing group of children and their families.

I’m looking forward to being back in a routine and being able to help the children in my classroom. I feel blessed to work where I do and I’m surrounded by amazing people. I don’t know what this year will bring but I will know soon enough. 😊

Gratitude

What daily habit do you do that improves your quality of life?

I get up everyday and write down all the things that I’m grateful for. It’s helped me have a better mindset and helps me know that I have so many blessings in my life. So when I feel stressed those blessings are things in my life that I can control. I can’t control things in my life that spin out of control. Then I’m able to rest easy and tackle whatever is put in front of me.