Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, or keeps no records of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects always tusts always hopes. 1 Corinthians 13:4-6

I always thought I was a patient person in all aspects in my life. I am at work with the children I work with. Recently I hurt myself at work and it’s been a slow recovery. It’s been hard to go from being able to do everything to being able to hardly do anything. The pain has been great and its painful to move. The worst for weeks was getting out of bed. It’s hard waiting for recovery. I’m inpatient and blamed myself for what had happened. I have a good friend who reminds me that this was an accident and it was not my fault. She’s right. I’ve been hard on myself what if I had done this or that…… It’s not my fault.

I’m inpatient waiting for that perfect job the one I keep applying for and the one I get turned down from because I have no senority. I went from being able to get any job I wanted to now having so wait patiently to gain seniority.

Psalm 40:1-3 

40 I waited patiently for the Lord; and he inclined unto me, and heard my cry.

² He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings.

³ And he hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in the Lord.

This has been a good time for me to see that God wants me to rest my body and heal and not worry about jobs, what I can and can’t do. He’s showed me that my body is tired. It’s tired from life and dealing with grief was so hard to work when my heart was broken. This injury has given me much needed time I needed to spend with the Lord. He’s taking care of all my needs and for now I’m resting my body and soul in the Lord. I realized today that I could never afford to go to physio if workers compensation were not paying for me to go and my loss of wages. Getting stronger and better is my goal right now and I need to embrace this. It’s nice to feel peace in the midst of my impatience. I would not trade this time for anything. God has a plan and all this under His control.