God is teaching me so many good things while I’m in the season of grief. Some lessons are a bit harder then others but it all ends up being used for God’s glory. My biggest challenge has been patience. It’s funny I’m so laid back and patient at school but have a really hard time with that concept outside work. I’m impatient and want results fast. God only works on His timing and that’s a much slower pace then what we might like. God’s word says “patience is a virtue.” Galatians 5:22-23
“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law.”
I see how God is using all His Fruits of the Spirit in this grieving season I’m in. Love is hard when my emotions go from sad to angry quickly but God reminds us to love. Grieving is easier as time goes on you feel less and less emotions but occasionally it hits you hard. I feel more joy now then I have had in a long time. I feel joy from knowing that God has me right in His hands and that He’s got me no matter what comes my way. I feel joy in little things, joy in watching flowers and plants grow, joy in training my dog, joy in a simple friendship, joy watching baby rabbits grow up or just laughing with a friend. I’m now joyful that I can hang out with 6 of my friends. We will social distance but that I can enjoy that on my birthday.
Peace has been there for a long time with me. I often feel God’s peace in my life. Even in the midst of chaos. Throughout this season I feel that peace. When I don’t feel it I just stop and pray and then it always comes back. When I’m doing what I feel God wants me to do that feeling of peace washes over me and transcends through me. I no longer feel that anxiety or fear of what will happen. God has provided for me in so many ways and continues to.
My faith has grown so much during this season. My heart soars when I spend time with God. I get excited and love to pray and read God’s word. I’m excited about what God is showing me and how He is and has been preparing me to do what He wants for me. I love that. I feel like am excited child waiting for a surprise. There is so much goodness in this season. God is moving and I’m so willing to see what He has in store for me.