When we feel like giving up

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Sometimes we all feel like giving up in life. Life gets too much what do we do when we feel like that. So many times in my life I wanted to just crawl into bed and never come out again. It’s too hard.  This photo of this horse with Hope written on his back still brings tears to my eyes. You also can see he’s missing an eye. This horse should have died. Not only did he live but he fought with all he had to survive. This horse’s name is Hero. He survived all odds after being shot in the head twice. Then he was trailing a long lead rope wandering high in the Cascade mountains.

A owner asked someone he knew to sell his horse because he not afford him anymore. This person instead took him high in the mountains and shot him once in the head but it did not kill him so shot him another time. He was left for dead. Somewhere in this brave horse all he wanted was to survive, he had to.  He survived unbelievable odds.  It seemed as though he had been wandering for several weeks. The vet figured that this small horse had lost about 200 pounds and was very dehydrated.  After lots of people heard about Hero, this horse gave so many people Hope in their lives. They realized that with the hope of the Lord that their lives could change as well.  You can read more about Hero and his amazing story of survival at Meet our horse Hero http://www.crystalpeaksyouthranch.org 

None of us can imagine how this horse felt left for dead. When we feel like we no longer can on what makes us get out of bed and move forward. It’s so hard and it takes everything we have in us. For me I could not do it without prayer and crying out to God lots. I needed God’s strength to help me put one foot in front of the other. I know that Hero must have felt God’s strength in his journey. This gentle meek horse had a will to live. Hero has inspired so many including me to keep moving forward no matter how hard it is. They found the will to live.  When we reach out to the Lord, He will carry us through any of our trials and walk beside us like he did those weeks Hero wandered up in the high mountains confused and hurt. How else could he survive? No matter what we face in our lives we must keep running the race. When we feel like we can no longer do it, God will pick us up and carry us. He is our strength.

 

There were many times in my life growing up that I wanted to just end my life and no go on. I had no will to live where my abuse just seemed to get worse and worse. I recently have seen that God was always with me no matter what circumstance I was in. How could one survive all of that. That is why this story of Hero is close to my heart. It’s a MIRACLE both stories. Miracles only come from God. Even trapped in addiction I fought so much because I wanted to live and so many times I wanted to just give up. I couldn’t because God always gave me the strength to fight.

I’m so glad I fought and cried out to the Lord and survived horrific abuse and addiction. One of my favorite verses is but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, and they will walk and not be faint.    Isaiah 40:31

When you feel like giving up reach out, call out to God He is listening and wanting to help. The story of Hero gives us all real hope.

Living life without addiction

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Life is hard enough without having addiction in ones life.   When things get tough the easy thing would be to get caught back in addiction. The hard thing is to choose to stay sober. I find after being in addiction that it’s hard to want to feel those hard feelings. For so long I numbed out feeling anything, it seemed easier to just not deal with what I was going through. Now I’m learning that I won’t die from feeling, yes it’s still uncomfortable but not as scary as it once was.   Now I pray and ask God to give me that peace and to pray about what is triggering me. Recently feelings of rejection came up with someone that I admire very much. After praying about it, I realized that the issue was not me and her but a deeper issue with my dad and stepmom. I ended up forgiving them both again for feeling that massive rejection from them both. A good friend and mentor told me today Jesus was rejected, abandoned, mocked and tortured by Everyone, but Jesus stayed the course He was called to. We all now can choose FREEDOM that His obedience purchased for us. The truth is we are never alone He is always with us!   People will let us down in this world we will feel rejection. What does it matter if the world rejects us as long as we have the Lord and He loves us all no matter is happening in our lives. With Christ in our lives we have everything. That is for sure. My friend is a wise woman and yes it gives me something to think about.   Peter disowned Jesus three times and Peter swore to Jesus, even if I have to die I will never disown you. We simply cannot rely on others what we need to rely on God for. God will never disappoint us He loves us no matter what and is always there for us. I realize that now but for a long time I tossed  Him aside and used addiction to try and soothe my soul. Guess what it never got better, it only made me feel more rejected, unloved and unwanted.   The longer I remain sober the less impulsive I am and I can make those wise decisions in my life. When things get rough I now can CHOOSE to glorify God in my decisions not using selfish ways to get what I want. For me the biggest thing in this life is reading and studying God’s word. As soon as I stop that I quickly become a crazy woman who listens to lies, doubts myself and I just become so unsure. Fear and anxiety are given a foothold in my life and it quickly goes downhill from there.  What kinds of things keep you strong in times of trouble? Feel free to share them with me what works? doesn’t work for you.              

The Journey Begins

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Thanks for joining me on this journey. I’m hoping that this blog will encourage people and give them Hope. Hope that only comes from the Lord. I’m a woman who has led a very difficult life. I have faced many trials even got caught up in addiction, but no matter where you have been in your life, there is Hope. With Hope you can get through anything.

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton

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