Seems like this is a hot topic in my life right now, so I thought I would write about it. When we put all our stocks in others we are bound to get hurt one way or another. The only person we can soley rely on is Jesus. He is who we should be turning to for everything. I find if I rely too much on certain people I always seem to get hurt. Don’t get me wrong I have my core people my peeps I can turn to and they are always there for me. I love that, no matter what is happening they are there. Good friends are hard to replace.
In Jeremiah 17:5-9 it says ” Cursed is the man who trusts in man and makes flesh his strength, whose heart turns away from the Lord. He is like a shrub in the desert, and shall not see any good come. He shall dwell in the parched places of the wildernessin the unhabited salt land. Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord. He is like a treeplanted by water, that sends out it’s roots by the stream, and does not fear when heat comes, for it’s leaves remain green; and it is not anxious in the year of the drought for it does not cease to bear fruit. The heart is deceitful above all things and desperately sick; who can understand it?”
” The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, my God, my rock in whom I take refuge, my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.” Psalm 18:2 The bible is full of scriptures about trusting God. God will never disappoint us but man will. I guess why this is a highlight in my life right now is on a couple of occasions I have felt disappointed and discouraged when I realized I have set my expectations of others too high and that I have set them in the wrong place. It was good for me to see this even though it hurt, it was a good lesson for me.
I am an introvert in some ways although I do like my down time, so I use people to boost me up and that’s what motivates me to continue on. I don’t do well on my own for long periods of time boredom for me is deadly. Often that is when I would use sexual addiction to fill in those spaces. I enjoy people a lot. Sometimes I can expect things from them and when I don’t get them I feel that rejection or disappointment. During those times I listen to worship music or write or reach out to others. I also can reconize that I need more of God and soak up His words. Then I feel that peace again that only comes from Him.