Life has changed so much in the last few weeks. Today marks day 6 of being at home away from people. It’s been hard for me. I’m sure it’s hard for a lot of people as well. I’m an extrovert so not being able to hang out with my friends or go to work has been really hard. I’m still on WCB but my gym had to close so now doing my workouts at home. That is nice that I don’t have to get up and rush out. It’s been a challenge in so ways because it’s a 4 hour program and my poor body has never worked out for 4 hours. It’s good when I pace myself. Something I don’t do well. It’s all or nothing.
I’m learning how to strengthen my body so that I never hurt myself at work again. It’s good and what’s that saying no pain no gain. Slowly I’m gaining that strength so that’s good. Working out is a good distraction and breaks up the day lots which is good.
This whole way of living has triggered past things. Hunger for me was huge growing up and even though I have enough food it triggered that with this pendemic. Not having enough food, being so hungry and well that feeling is nothing like you could ever imagine. The other thing that got triggered for me was being alone. Yes I’m alone with not being able to hang out with certain people and lots of people have a significant other or children to hang out with. I have Zeke and two cute bunnies. The lack of people in my life is hard.
That’s why my relationship with the Lord is the most important. You are never alone with Christ in your life. He is there and so during my lonely times I reach out to Him and He holds me close. Then I feel that peace that only transcends from Him. We can be lonely in our marriages I was for a long time, or we can be lonely in our homes. God wants us to reach out to Him.
I have my friends whom I can video chat with as well. I’m learning a lot in this time away from people and work. This week I brought my first lawnmower and mowed my lawn. It looks good and again doing so many things I never thought I’d have to do without my husband. I can do these things and yes I will survive the social distancing. We are all in this together.